Tuesday, September 16, 2008

>>Release<<

Stop playing fool in front of me..Do you really think it is funny? stop it..stop torturing me..i neva done anything wrong..pls give me a better life..i have enough of things to worried and settled..pls give me a better way to step out..i need to breath..things have been occured in this semester i hope to release it here and i wish it is the better way to do this...

it was a sunday at night, i am on my way back to INTI. Suddenly my housemate called..During that time, i was wondering why he will call me and i guess it should'nt be a good news, so i picked up the phone. Yes, i got it strike, he suspected me that i stole his money in his room. He asked me whether i got took his money or not. if i have taken, he asked me to admit and tell him.he will settle in a good way. How will i take plp's money without permission?? i have my self disipline also. I wont take plp's money. Although i have shortage in money, but i will not take plp's money just like that.. i can get it from my parent when i dun have money and why have to steal yours money.Y cant he just believe me that i did not take his money.. His eyes has told me that, I am the theif in the house..but i did not do that..and he just lost 100++, but in my case i have losted more than 270 and i did not tell anybody about it. who more pitful then??think plp's feeling before you ready to talk..it will really hurt plp's heart..

Friend..What is friend??and what is best friend??can you define to me?? yes, i have many friends, but who is my real friend?i do not know. Cos i have seen a lot of cases that friends are so selfish..first, my case, all of my friend will just care for themselves only. they WILL NOT show their helping hand to you. Because what they are thinking is saving themselves are more important than saving others..FRIENDs, if you have this kind of thought inyour mind, you are really selfish..Next time, when i decided to show my helping hand for you, you will just make me reflect of what you have did to me and it is the turn you get suffer. So, treat nicely to plp first before you wanted plp to help you..

But someone really treat me very nice. she cares a lot. she gave me whatever she can. She will neva mumbling for what i have done..this really called a kind person. But the only bad thing she has will be, the level of jealousy are higher than others plp. all she will do this to me is because she dun want herself to be ignored. and i understand..Because of you, i started to be kind and be hardworking in everything i do..but, plp would need to have time to release their stress and pressure, so sometime when i did something wrong pls forgive me, cos the family matters have push me into certain extent.hope you will understand..

but, someone at the same time control me like nobody..i hate YOU to complain everything to me. the reason i could not make it is because i dun wish to do it. and i hate you to force me to do anything. Dun control me. i am human and a 20 years old adult. i have my freedom to do anything i want. So, stop interupt my life..Go on with your life..


i have face a lot of problem in my family already..can you all pls dun make so much of thing to torture me anymore?it is not a game..it really makes plp cry and sad..i want a happy life but not being bullied.. can you guys help me?? My birthday is approching soon..i would like to make few wishes here..

1. I want my life to be better, great and meaningful.
2. I dun want to get bullied by anyone.
3. I want many friends that is kind to me and treat me nicely.
4. Dun force me to do things that i dun want to do.
5. I need a friend who can really listen to me when i am sad.
6. and lastly, i want to have unlimited wishes, so that i can solve a lot of my problems.