>>Release<<

Stop playing fool in front of me..Do you really think it is funny? stop it..stop torturing me..i neva done anything wrong..pls give me a better life..i have enough of things to worried and settled..pls give me a better way to step out..i need to breath..things have been occured in this semester i hope to release it here and i wish it is the better way to do this...

it was a sunday at night, i am on my way back to INTI. Suddenly my housemate called..During that time, i was wondering why he will call me and i guess it should'nt be a good news, so i picked up the phone. Yes, i got it strike, he suspected me that i stole his money in his room. He asked me whether i got took his money or not. if i have taken, he asked me to admit and tell him.he will settle in a good way. How will i take plp's money without permission?? i have my self disipline also. I wont take plp's money. Although i have shortage in money, but i will not take plp's money just like that.. i can get it from my parent when i dun have money and why have to steal yours money.Y cant he just believe me that i did not take his money.. His eyes has told me that, I am the theif in the house..but i did not do that..and he just lost 100++, but in my case i have losted more than 270 and i did not tell anybody about it. who more pitful then??think plp's feeling before you ready to talk..it will really hurt plp's heart..

Friend..What is friend??and what is best friend??can you define to me?? yes, i have many friends, but who is my real friend?i do not know. Cos i have seen a lot of cases that friends are so selfish..first, my case, all of my friend will just care for themselves only. they WILL NOT show their helping hand to you. Because what they are thinking is saving themselves are more important than saving others..FRIENDs, if you have this kind of thought inyour mind, you are really selfish..Next time, when i decided to show my helping hand for you, you will just make me reflect of what you have did to me and it is the turn you get suffer. So, treat nicely to plp first before you wanted plp to help you..

But someone really treat me very nice. she cares a lot. she gave me whatever she can. She will neva mumbling for what i have done..this really called a kind person. But the only bad thing she has will be, the level of jealousy are higher than others plp. all she will do this to me is because she dun want herself to be ignored. and i understand..Because of you, i started to be kind and be hardworking in everything i do..but, plp would need to have time to release their stress and pressure, so sometime when i did something wrong pls forgive me, cos the family matters have push me into certain extent.hope you will understand..

but, someone at the same time control me like nobody..i hate YOU to complain everything to me. the reason i could not make it is because i dun wish to do it. and i hate you to force me to do anything. Dun control me. i am human and a 20 years old adult. i have my freedom to do anything i want. So, stop interupt my life..Go on with your life..


i have face a lot of problem in my family already..can you all pls dun make so much of thing to torture me anymore?it is not a game..it really makes plp cry and sad..i want a happy life but not being bullied.. can you guys help me?? My birthday is approching soon..i would like to make few wishes here..

1. I want my life to be better, great and meaningful.
2. I dun want to get bullied by anyone.
3. I want many friends that is kind to me and treat me nicely.
4. Dun force me to do things that i dun want to do.
5. I need a friend who can really listen to me when i am sad.
6. and lastly, i want to have unlimited wishes, so that i can solve a lot of my problems.

08.08.08

No doubt..it is 08 august 2008 today..wake up very early at 10am today just want to go library and study for my HRM but i did not mange to study but day dreaming there..just dun feel like studying cos at nite, 6.30pm, we decided to watch Olympic together. so we wait under 6.30 and go to lecture theather room and wait for the opening ceremony to start.

Unfortunetly, i did not watch olympic at all.. the china association's comittee cheat me..INTI does not subscribe the channel and i waited there for 2 hours without seeing any thing..fuck~ then after 8.09pm, we left the place..really boiled at that time..i waited for so long just want to watch the show begin cos i have never watched this type of opening ceremony in my life before..i wasted another time again...the moment we sent kevin they all back, mana tau, all the people who were eating their dinner at kopitiam, are wacthing there..we forgot that, those places also got..really damn.....

they really waste my time la..i might as well study until 6.30 then go back sleep better..BTW,My final really coming ready..i am so nervous..i will do my best and wont let my parent disappointed..although i hate to have 5 subjects in 4 days but i will try my best de..i will learn to be more open minded.. thinking of the positive side rather than the negative...you can do it, Bing Kun~~

Not fair to me

Already don’t know how to express myself anymore.Why is this world be so unfair? How come those people who are not serious in work can simply get something easily, but me, has to go through so many miserable period of time? I have learnt not to be as bad as b4 and I have changed all my bad habit into good one, but I still cannot gain something which I desired the most?

Time goes really fast, my entire friend planned to go Australia ready, but I can’t. Everyone there is so happy to talk about Australia, but I have to act like I can go there and start to prepare with them. But at the same time, I also have to remind myself that, it might have higher possibilities that might not be going there. My fear and sadness have overwhelming. I really don’t know how to plan for myself.

Something which has reflecting my mind many times, since I worked so well for my studies just because of wanting to go to Australia. If I realize, I couldn’t go Australia, what am I go to be? Will I be lazy like before during secondary school time? Or just give up my study and go for work? Although. XXX told me how if he can’t afford me to go for Australia? And I always say never mind, let’s find the other college and settle down there. But do you know? My tears are bleeding inside my heart? I work so hard just to go there but ultimately, I couldn’t achieve my goals. Advices for everybody, if your family is rich, please treasure the time when you go abroad to study. Because, a person like me cannot go Australia are so desperate of going there but due to financial problem. i really envy you guys~~

I think is time to be brave and endure everything that it might face to me...

Orientation Night- Dazzling Palace

Yea...This is the new updates for the Orientation Night may session 2008-Dazzling Palace on the 2nd of July 2008..Perhaps everyone has looking forward with the picture right?? Here we go:

Actually there are a lot of pictures need to put it up here. Due to i have no time to select the best photo, i will just simply upload few photos here and to satisfy my friend..haha

First of all, what i should say?? I am quite pity for the participants cos they practiced until 5am in the morning,very late..and still have to gather up on time at 12pm on the 2nd of july(Orientation night) to have make up and hair styling..these are the picture:

Introduce to you first. This is M3 Rex. He likes to dance very much. He is a great breaker among the participants..scroll down and see whether he nominated in finalist or not:)

Next, This is F6 Manisha...

Haa~~this is our pretty boy called Sky(M2).. I tot he might be someone who from penang or upper part in Semenanjung Malaysia..mana tau, he is from my home town, Johor Bahru..think back, no wonder, Johor Bahru always produce handsome boy,haha..:) He is the Mr. Photogenic 2008 for this semester o'nite.not bad~~

This is F2 Shi Qian...is a potential cat walker. But not enuff shaking her buds as i told her thousand of times..hihi..Look at this hair, she sat there for more than 2 hours la..i have been waiting there until hungry..starvation which she gave me..

Next, he is M6 Zhang Liang, a guy from china..learning a lot of funny words from him like sa bi, bi hu de ma, ni nao dai jing sui le and etc. Not bad, he is the Mr. Congeniality for this semester o'nite.

This is a super skinny participant named Ivy Khoo.. when looking at her legs, you will worry that her leg break anytime and anywhere.. Takut takut..she is miss Congeniality for this semester too.

Well, this is Vanessa(F4) mongolian but growing up in the US..so what should call her??haha...her english is so good,perfect~~ pity her also as she was sick that night..i like her talent very much...

this guy called chua(M3).he used to act a lot of pose which we cant expect.. see, two of them acting again...there must be someone asking them to act like that... who are you??? ha~~

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the whole afternoon was so busy...all of them are waiting for the show begin..let's go out and see what's happening outside...check it out...:)

While waiting for the night begins:

The longest queue ever in inti..this is the only night in inti which having a long queue but not other events...so, for those who viewed this blog, you must be remembered that orientation night is the grandest event in INTI..

Finally, the show begins..VIP enter into MPH..there was me(Advisor) and Dr. sia, accompanied by tadika children..

Followed by the previous Mr.Inti (Mir) and Miss Inti (Shalini)

Peview part, designed by stanley. The originator of Orientation night.i like this very much..you guys like it??

These are the photo during the show:

Finally, is the time to release the result. The winner was Handsome Chua and pretty Vanessa. the prize was RM 200 for each winner, a hamper, one month free serves net at cc, and also RM150 voucher from a spectacles shop.

Conclusion: It is a good memory to keep in mind that we have achieved our goals.. Orientation night finally end of the show..Thank you for all the committee..i appreciated it a lot.

The top management for Social Board and orientation night

From the left: Jing Ting(Vice Chairperson 2), Kevin ( Vice chairperson 1), Huey ling(Organizing Chairperson), Clement (Advisor)

Of cos we wont forget you Dixon.. Our next 13th INTIMA Social Board Committee..

Kevin(Chaiperson) and Dixon (Vice chairperson)
Aja aja fighting~~~

This is my last orientation night in INTI, it brought me a lot of unforgetable memories..i will miss you guys very much..is my pleasure to organised event with you guys..:)

and again,useless~

What happenned to me??i tot this is the easiest semester that i would have(although taking 5 subjects), but i still face the same problem...how come there must be a subject which gives me the highest pressure?? no matter how i study well, the result still very low... is it my method of studying already wrong?? but how come my other subjects does not face the problem??

I know, finance is not in my field, therefore, i put a lot of effort in this particular subject.. somehow,the result is not what i expected.. The theory of expectancy tells me the truth..My result is inequity... how can it be so hard..i have been reading reading and reading..but it does not comes to my mind...i know this subject is very important to everyone as finance help us a lot in the financial market but i believe that experience bring us through this.. why you wanna ask a marketing people to study all this??i dun want to take this subject...help me....i am so sacred...

nobody will understand my fear...cos i really dun understand finance...and i dun know how to study finance anymore...i also discovered something on myself, my ability of memorize thing is getting worse...whatever i have studied keep going out from my mind...i dun want this to happen to me...who can solve this problem for me???

everytime, i promise myself to study well for my exam, but when opened the book, my eyes start tired and felt sleepy...why??why can't i just study well??? who can help me in this again??
of course there is a lot of people telling me the solution, but it doesnt cure.. i want everything just absorb to my mind easily and faster, who can help me with this again??NO...the answer is NO,NO,NO...always NO... i hate this feeling...

well, since no one can help, at last, i still have to study with myself..cos everyone here is so selfish..there will not show their concern and assistance to you...final examination is nearer, LBK, your life coming back again..go library to study..otherwise nobody can help you le...Cheers up..no use hating yourself, no use blaming yourself..this is the path way you chosen and you should face it...do your own schedule and start working hard from NOW..

and finally, i love being myself....

Stupid Doctorate~~

huh~ just want to write something that make me feel boiled for 5 days until now...and i think this is the path way for me to let off...

as everyone knew, onite had just passed for 5 days, and of cos i knew that this event bring a lot of dissatisfaction and boredness to the entire INTI students.. although this event were so 'bad', but please acknowledge the effort and tiring from us(Social Board team members)~~ ..who dun want to organise an event that let all the INTI student to have fun?? of cos i want..

I accepted everyone leave bad comments to me but not criticizing~~i hate the person who critisicing about my event not even worth one sen..how can she complaint from the beginning until end of the show and i couldnt enjoyed my last orientation night in INTI at all... ok, what she complaint about was why so many chinese performances?? why no others international students come to perform??do you think it is very easy for us to find performances?? have you ever know how toilsome is my committees?? we did find international student to perform but nobody wants... this old lady were too much~~she keep complaining to my committee that my event is the worst compare to last sem~~how can you talk this to everyone?? do you know the level of position?? you can tell me your resentful to me or either the oc or vocs...but not the my committe which only has a little tiny power.. she might never been studying management b4, that's why...

nevermind, this is just the beginning of the story..asking her to have price giving to the Mr. and Miss INTI participant, she doesnt want to go up...in the end i get scolded by the head of SAO again..why got this kind of people?? not only that, she went and told the entire JPA students that oreintation night didnt bring the real culture of the show to the new students..Since you are so clever, come and organise the same event as we do la..see how will be going on..(your INTI Carnival was not that well also)...aiya, she really make me feel very dissapointed this time..dun talk about her le la..tiring of typing and wasting my time here...

In conclusion, who do you think you are?? you are just a Dr. holder.. dun think you are really proffessional...i can be better than you do~~ ******

Introduction about me and my life..

First time writing blog of myself.. what should i write about?? (",)well, i am Clement Liaw, 19 years old, born in Malaysia, Johor Bahru. Currently, studying in INTI International University College. I am an Australian Degree transfer student, taking double major in Marketing and Management. The chairperson of 12th INTIMA Social Board too and going to retire soon. Haha~~. Life in INTI is getting very bored as all my friends are leaving soon. All the younger people is stepping into this college, slowly,i become a senior here.How should i say? is kinda old yet very active person..hee~

But never mind, ultimately, it still has something which can motivate me. This is my second last semester here.. i can finish my 2nd year degree soon..Althought, one shot taking 5 subjects(Hard like hell), but i hope i can still enjoy the life in INTI.. I really hope can making more friends here..joining more activity which i desire very much.. especially dancing..But the sadness thing is, all my friend are so 'cacat', they dont know how to dance..:( where can i further my hobbies?? Hip hop , modern dance, pop-ing, break dance??all gone:(

anyway, is good that being a chairperson of social board..two days before just finished my orientation night..The winner was handsome Chua and pretty Vanessa.. they are all i expected..this event really make me felt like dying cos neva sleep properly for two days..anyway the photo for orientation night will be uploaded in here soon..so, be passion and wait for my pic..haha~~i think tah's all about it, just come over here and wait for my update gua..i will be going to put my last memories in INTI in this few month..so, enjoy~~ (",)